I Am Done With... False Humility

The other day, I wrote about meeting one of my musical idols (bad term to use in a Christian blog, but oh well) and how I spent most of the time avoiding him, trying to be unnoticed. What an absurd thing to do, I thought. The whole point I was there, back-stage waiting for him, was to meet him - that is, to be noticed. Needless to say, I feel that way a lot with my relationship with God.

I am done with being unnoticed by God.

I'm done with feeling like I have to say after delivering a message, "Oh, it wasn't me speaking..." and then mystically staring at the ceiling for several seconds of reverence.

I'm done with "It's not about me" Christianity really being a means of bringing more attention to myself through my self-righteous refusals to accept a compliment.

I'm done with deflecting, instead of just thanking God for the gifts and talents he's bestowed on me.

I'm done with blaming the Devil for my just being plain crappy at some stuff and not willing to take personal responsibility for mistakes.

I'm done with thinking that humility means thinking of myself as anything less than a child of God.

I'm done with frail and puny spirituality that wouldn't stand a chance in a real battle when all hell breaks loose.

I'm done with thinking of myself as a sinner, instead of as a saint.

I'm done with feeling defeated every morning when I wake up, thinking that I'm "doomed to sin."

I'm done with a faith that doesn't give me authority to bring light to dark places, with thinking that being a "co-heir with Christ" doesn't mean what it sounds like it means, with waiting for the Rapture instead of believing "the kingdom of God is within you."

I'm not done with true humility, but I'm done with all the fake stuff that religious people love to flaunt. It may not win me any front-row seats at the next Gaither concert, but that's just the price I have to pay.